hippie prayer

how come not having any money in the bank doesn't get me down?
i mean i used to get stressed about the bills
i used to cry
now i'm just kinda like, whateva let's go to the bookstore
and get some starbucks
i just want to enjoy my life
i just want to share that enjoyment with my booka
every single day
am i supposed to be stressed?
i don't think so
life is short
we've heard it a million, three thousand and twenty-two times at least
and if i dropped dead when i finished typing this
wouldn't the bank account balance and the bills still be there?
i guess it wouldn't matter then
my ma called tonight
to let me know that some student loan bill
one that i already paid came in the mail
again
it said that it's a nursing loan
i was not a nursing major
so what's a nursing loan?
great (total sarcasm)
whatevs
i just want to be free
i don't want to be one of those people
people who pride themselves on calling themselves a free spirit
laidback
i want to genuinely be a free spirit
i mean
i want stuff
i want a home
i want a family
i want to walk in a store and buy a caftan if i want it
mmm
and coach has a cute one that i'd love to have
but the damn thing costs more than my car payment
and more than my rent
that's a no no
but you get the point
what is the point?
why save if you can't get what you want?
i mean it's nice to have a cushion to get what you need
but if you can't get what you want
there's no fun
goal:
a fun loving free spirit with a cushion
the new age hippie
the modern hippie
if there could be such
i just want to be happy
but most of all
i want everyone around me to be happy
i want my man to be happy
and satisfied
i don't want him to ever have to worry about a thing
and my girlfriends and fam too
let's all be happy
and celebrate
and enjoy
savoring it all
and we can have it too
all we gotta do
is pray

amen